It does seem that I am. The last few years of my life had kind of destroyed a lot of inspiration and desire to do much art wise. I blame a lot of it on stress and depression. Since 2007 my Fiance and I have moved 7 times. Never really being able to settle down in one place for more than a year. This last summer we made a move again that actually changed our lives a bit.
After 3 years of being unemployed from the Game Designing world my fiance was given a job offer at one of his old companies. We had just moved to his home town several months earlier. But with the chance to get our lives back in order we packed up once again and moved back to Southern California. About 4 hours into the trip, our car which we had been towing behind our U-Haul truck caught fire. Hadn't not been for someone who flagged us down to pull over, who knows how long we would of been driving with a burning car. By the time we jumped out of the moving truck, we caught a glimpse of the car's engine catch on fire, and within a matter of moments the car was engulfed.
During our many moves we've always put our more important items into the car instead of the moving truck. To prevent any damage. Unfortunately we had a lot of that in our now burning car. Several items that my fiance brought from Japan, our computers were in the trunk, all our cats belongings were in the front seat. (Cat was with us in the carrier in the truck btw. So he was fine, just freaked out from what was going on.) And our laptop.
Thankfully the fire department were very quick to get there and put out the car. The car was obviously totaled, the whole front half was gone, and we had to face the reality that with our move we were now minus a car. Though with my fiance and I began to accept the fact that we had both just lost our computers, with years of work lost between the two of us. The fire fighters actually surprised us when they mentioned that the trunk was actually untouched, beside from some smoke. We also were able to recover some items from the back seat. Unfortunately to my cat though, all his cat toys and treats were lost. (I had one really unhappy kitty.)
We were minus a car but we did make it down to Southern California the next day. We pulled into a Motel 6 after the ordeal. There was nothing more fun than having to come up to the night clerk window, obviously shaking and covered in black ash and soot everywhere. The lady looked at me like I was crazy, especially after I quickly gave her the short story of what happened. My good friend when I told her the story said it reminded her of a scene from Kill Bill. I guess it was a bit like that.
After the event I guess you could say things seemed to change a bit. My work with my own store in Second Life grew. Though sometimes all of my inspiration and creativity gets poured into it. But I just finished the Fantasy Faire and I have Second Pride coming up.
I also went to my first convention in 6 years, it was even an out of state convention. I attended Emerald City Comic Con in Seattle Washington, while visiting my best friend . I also met some really awesome Homestuck Fans and cosplayers, inspiring me to want to cosplay again.
I still play WoW, though probably not as crazy as I used to. Yes Pyrope is still my main. I do experiment with other MMO's as well, such as Aion and I am currently playing around with Ragnarok Online 2.
I currently do not have a DJing job, though I probably will go back to it in the future. Though I do occasionally like to spin at our Homestuck hangout in Second Life. But haven't lately.
So all and all, I like to believe things have gotten a bit better with my life, and it's allowing me to work with my characters that I love once again. Not to mention work on some fan arts of a fandom that I adore right now. My fiance and I are also discussing the possibility that we may be able to get married sometime next fall. *crosses fingers*
In the mean time we aren't quite out of the wood work with all stress issues, but we try and keep fighting. We probably will have to move again when our lease is up, but we're aiming for some place that's a lot more permanent. (When we got this place we already knew it wasn't going to be.) Hopefully some place a bit closer to his work.
I know I've lost a lot of followers, but I'm hoping to gain some new ones in the future. Sometimes you just have to start over. Especially when I look back on my old work and it actually makes me want to . Seriously it does. And to the people who have stuck around. Thank you and I'm sorry I had let you down.
Will I be taking commissions anytime soon? Maybe? We will see.
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